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benniebatch:
tothesyllable:
It’s just…staying.
#and this is precisely why i don’t understand people who were ‘surprised’ by moriarty’s suicide or thought it was OOC #the final problem was STAYING ALIVE. #and it was a problem not because he wanted to live but because he wanted to die. #’IT’S SO BORING ISN’T IT? IT’S JUST STAYING.’ #life was tedium and stasis for him. HE WANTED OUT. #the final problem - the endgame he has had in mind since series one - was about him being ready to die #and it wasn’t just his problem - he wanted to share it with sherlock #it wasn’t enough simply to die - he wanted (needed) to do it knowing that sherlock understood #death would have brought him no comfort without the knowledge that he hadn’t been alone on this miserable planet all along. #why do you think he is so fucking devastated to have ‘beaten’ sherlock? #sherlock disappointed him and now he hasn’t just lost him (‘I DON’T EVEN HAVE YOU’) but lost also the death he wanted for himself. #(the death he wanted for THEM - this was about a certain ‘togetherness’ for him - it was meaningless without sherlock) #and so he tells him ‘NOW I HAVE TO GO BACK TO PLAYING WITH THE ORDINARY PEOPLE’ #not because he WANTS to (as the disgust in his tone should make clear) #but because he doesn’t have it in him to die the way he wanted to without having his big moment of connectivity with sherlock #this is what makes him dying with sherlock’s hand in his so profound #it’s also what makes his ending such a moving and beautiful one - he got everything he wanted #the gun in one hand and sherlock’s in the other #as andrew scott has made clear - moriarty was a desolate lonely and unhappy character #and in his final moments that utter desolation melts away #as he and sherlock finally put the game aside for a few moments and share something honest devastating and intimate #moriarty wanted sherlock and he wanted death and the two became inextricable for him #’winning’ meant nothing - all he wanted was the feeling of sherlock’s hand in his and the relief of finally knowing there was SOMEONE #someone for him and someone LIKE him #this is why he dies with a smile on his face and this is why his suicide was the PERFECT ending to his arc
this was a really nice gifset till I got to the tags
It’s raining on my face now.